gloomcookie

so i love hangin out with shaun he's so cute he makes me little heart go pitter patter :) i wanna give him hugs all the time love his hugs!!! kisses!! even better xoxoxoxoxo

why is it that there will be a week were everything is crap then everything goes good back and fouth back and forth. and I don't know why but I'm so concerned about hurting someone even though they brought it on them selves...I just neeed to learn how to be an ass hole and I should be happy for myself because of someone that I could possibly trust and give alot to and who can do the same for me is actually kinda evolving....no one probably knows what I'm talkin about but it seems better since i wrote it down....life is a big ride and I got to put my hands up instead of worrying about everyone elses hands being up...they're on their own ride

so he left me again....this time for the neighbor, who just had a baby three months ago....uh...she's still married to the dad....uh she does nothing but drink and take pills and smoke.....she's what 20....and now offically a slut same with brandon....and I'm offically stupid for taking him back three months ago after he left me for a girl named teresa....so basicly the last almost 2 years means nothing to him because he always has some one.... right there after we break up for 2 hours....how does someone think like him!!!!I don't understand.......here I am still in love with him...willing to do anything for him...while he's off banging some